Why PAIN leads to HAPPINESS

Do you often feel like something isn’t quite right, like your running from an uncomfortable sensation? Or keeping busy to avoid what lies beneath your full to the brim schedule. I mean, what would happen if we actually got real and felt what was underneath the defences we can all so easily build around ourself. Would we survive, would the world end, could we cope?

What I’ve come to understand is - if we block out our uncomfortable feelings, the ‘double edge sword effect’ still holds true, we will also block the awesome feelings - like love, joy, bliss and connection.

I’ve noticed the quality of our experience of life depends on the amount of courage we bring to it. And by this I mean, getting real. Owning our truth, what we are really feeling and allowing it to express itself. And because feelings are emotions and emotions are energy in motion – it all boils down to energy. If we can actually be truthful in what we are feeling, we can ‘honour’ this energy, connect with it. Let it flow through us. When we honour what is within us, we respect ourself, our strength begins to grow, our power and sense of self expands, actually our aura (energy field) expands because we are now ‘owning our truth’, coming from a place of self-acceptance.

From the everyday small decisions like not attending the party we’re not feeling pulled towards  - to the bigger ones like ending it with a guy your seeing who isn’t stepping up to the mark. Getting real and acting upon it takes courage, but when you think about it, life is a mix of ups and downs, light and dark, yin and yang, so if we attempt to block one part out, we won’t be in balance, our energy won’t flow and we will ultimately suffer because of our resistance towards life.

Yesterday I listened to the new album by Jai Jagdeesh after doing some Kundalini Yoga. And something shifted, something deep came to the surface, (kind of like a volcanoe erupting). There were mountains of tears and so much pain, pain I don’t even know where from. But I didn’t run, I faced it head on, the energy moved through me in the form of tears, both warm and cold sensations and feelings of deep hurt, grief, sadness and helplessness. It literally got to a point where the energy over took my body and I sat on the floor unable to function but knowing I had to go with it (ride the wave) and let it move through me to be released.

Today my friend said - ‘wow you look fresh’. As I look in the mirror I feel lighter, brighter and more alive. And it is true, I am more alive, because the energy is able to run more freely through my physical body (think of a light bulk that’s trying to shine, but the cord is blocked). I can move more with life, I can be seen, heard and connect on a deeper level with myself and everyone else. To me this is ecstasy, this brings about real happiness and is a part of what we are searching for, connection, to ourself, others, the earth and a higher power.

We just need the courage to:

Sit, connect, feel, breathe, experience, release, renew. 

Love,

Alexis xxx